If you haven’t
watched iO Tillett Wright’s talk on sexuality, I highly recommend you to watch
it. (http://www.ted.com/talks/io_tillett_wright_fifty_shades_of_gay.html) I
remember how amazed I was the first time when I watched her talk. She asked
those people who she took photos for to give themselves scores from 1 to 100 to
see if they are 100% gay or straight. What she found to be really interesting
was that there are a large number of people who defined themselves in the
middle, no too gay but also not too straight. As she noted in her talk, the
findings in her project actually posed a difficult question for people who
discriminate others as LGBTQ: whom do you want to discriminate? How do you
define a gay?
Readings of this
week, even though they addressed sexuality, are coming from different
perspectives than Wright’s. Focusing on the donor-donee relationship, Chanika,
Lwanda & Muula’s article talked about how Malawian politicians tried to
have donors fund their own political agenda by using the “gay right issue” as a
strategy to confuse activists and donors. Also, as Gosine noted, the assumption
of a western model of sexuality as universal is limited. She said, “words like
‘gay’ and ‘lesbian’ may be recent introductions to local vocabularies . . . but
there are many names used to describe non-heterosexual acts” (p. 60). Citing
from Wright, I didn’t mean to set up her way as the only way to understand
sexuality, like Gosine said “western as universal.” But her talk did make me
think a lot on those issues, issues like “why should the marriage between a man
and a woman be legitimated but not others?” and “How should we understand
sexuality? Is it innate, something that we were born with, or social
constructed?”
Usually, I don’t
give out my answers directly. Part of the reason is because I am not quite sure
about my answer. J But I would like to talk about some
episode happened in my life and hopefully, answer will be shown in the episode.
My colleague and I used to have arguments on
sexuality. (Well, I didn’t say that our relationship is not healthy. On the
contrary, we are good friends. I will use “B” for my colleague in the following
episode just for the sake of convenience. Btw, I am a lazy cat. Addressing him
as “B” saves me a lot of time and energy.)
B: you have been
poisoned by the Western education! As a Chinese, do you really believe their
saying of sexuality? Coming on…
Me: I just think
people have their own rights to choose.
B: hey, don’t
forget Confucius. Isn’t Yin and Yang, harmonious, the basic value that Chinese
believes?
Me: yes we do.
We do believe in Yin and Yang and the harmony. But I just don’t think Yin only
refers to female and Yang refers to male. I think something like energy that people
are carrying on makes them appear to be Yin or Yang.
B (shaking his
head): you are poisoned.
Me: hey,
Confucius even said, “Only women and the base men are not educable.” So should
I believe in that too?
B: then how can
you explain “having kids” if it is same-sex marriage?
Me: well, not
everyone chooses to be in the same-sex marriage. I said that it is people’s own
choice.
…
The conversation
ended at that moment because both of us needed to go to class. But it is still
going on in our everyday life. We, as normal human beings, often confused about
ourselves, about others, and even about the world. The more we know, the more
we confused because we figure out that there are more things we still need to catch
up. In the book The Denial of Death,
Earnest Becker argued that everything we do in the world is because we are
afraid of death. I found myself agreed with what he said. I asked myself to imagine
if I could live forever, will I still think it is necessary to have a baby
before 35? Probably not, because I will have “forever” to do it! I guess you
can also say that human beings are selfish. We give birth to babies because we
are afraid of death.